Don't play if you don't wish to lose your money~~

Don't show me this kind of face after you lose your money~~

I am kinda fed up of it~

I am fine if you don't wish to talk with me for the whole day like yesterday~

I will be fine~

I am just who i am~

If you not trying to talk to me for a day fine~

I will be okay with it~

Just tell me you are not in the mood,

and i wil not disturb you at all~

Its so irritating if you acted like this~

I wont talk to you if you don wish to~

I am not a slave for you when u need me

and don't think you can dump me when you don need me~

I just a normal person

a normal girl

a normal friend i can be~

At last, i went to have a buffet style dinner at Grand Borneo Hotel with my frens in Sabah.

Its such a nice dinner i had~

Not really nice actually.

But the day, the moment we enjoy there is fun~

We ate and play around and fooling each other around~

we still went to beach at Tanjung Aru.

It's such a beautiful beach i had ever been,

the sand and the sea water.

It feel so nice to be there.

We were playing with water.
It made me wet all the whole body~

Yeeeuuu~~~

I smell the happiness and i never thought we could we strongly bond together by friendship.

And now, we are more than friendship, we are all housemate~

Happily staying together~

And play things around, do things together.

i never felt regret to move out from my hostel as it make me used up alot of money.

I bought my happiness....

I just simple love them alot~

I cant wait to go for buffet tomorro night~~

How happy if i could finish my exam right now~

And i could just take my luggage and fly to kl now~~

I wish too see bie right now~

He is too nice to me~

Driving 3 hours to LCCT airport to fetch me...

And another 3hours from LCCT to his house

He gonna be very tired.

I will accompany you all the long long journey~~

Love you darling~

A za A za~~!

I am fighting fighting~~

A BIG BIG war

Exam is going to be starting tomorrow.
but i am still sitting on my chair, holding notes and eyes on my laptop.

Is it my laziness which don't allow me to study or my emotion prevent me from studying?

I dunno how to express it.

I need somebody to come and save.

I d ask help from Jmie but, she din reply me~

haha~~

Nothing happen to me, but i seem like so emo now~

Something that cannot being explain~

Because you? you or you?

No way~!

I live for myself.

Not for you all.

Wake up miss SharoN~

No more night or day dreaming~

its been too much imagination for yourself.

Gonna pull urself out before it gets deeper and deeper.

You should understand yourself.

Grandpa, i miss you.

Shall i meet you at home when i get back?

Can you do this for me?

Its been months~

But, i still like unacceptable of it.

Time, time, time, its all bluffing me~

I need you always my grandpa~

Got the news from my sis yesterday~

Mom and dad went to KL for your funeral~

It might be the last time i saw you in my grandpa's funeral~

But, don't worry, my grandpa is there, at the heaven waiting for you.

You wont be any lonely there.

You are such a good uncle to me~

We will always remember you~

RIP uncle Weng.....

Its ah kang's birthday last Thursday.
As we will all having exam on coming Monday, we decided to celebrate it on Wednesday.
We will be all fighting for our final exam before we are going home~
Then, we went to Upperstar to have our western dinner.
I ordered the lamb chop, its absolutely definitely delicious babe~!
I love it so much, and also not to forgot the baked mushroom soup~
Yummy~~
We went there in 3 cars, total of 13 persons? i think its correct~
Its been so long we had not been having a gathering like this.
Happy to see that every1 were there, and we could chat for the whole day.
Then, they decided to come our house to continue their activities.
Who ever don't know what's the activities to be on at our house.
Bought some tiger beer and they started to play will poker card.
I still have my presentation on the next day so i decide to go on my bed at 3.
They continued.
That's is what usually happen last few weeks.
Then, this is the first time i should say for eileen and jean to play overnight.
Also the first time for them to play 4-person mahjong~
I don't really know how they do that~
Though its still a happy day for all of them~~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY O AH KANG~

I am done with my day~
Happy cause today it changed to be you sms me first.
Hohoho....
nothing make me special except ur sms~
I miss you alot~

I smell something different~

Or maybe i should not sms him?

He never acted like this to me.

He treated me differently right now.

Is it because he knew about it already?

Or its his jealousy?

I want to know the answer please.

Its so suffering~

Maybe you will never know what i am thinking.

Maybe you will never know how i feel.

Maybe you will not going to understand my feeling.

But 

i wish one day, maybe some day i can express it out to you.

And maybe you will accept it.

Just give me sometime to think over it.

I don't wish to lose this friendship with you.

I really dont know what going on on myself.

is it i did something wrong today?

I not sure.

Seems like i doing the wrong thing everyday.

Early in the morning, he play with my phone, he said he wanted to read my sms.

So, i did not say anything and i allowed him to read them.

So he knew my everything.

I did not know this is god or bad for me.

I just wish he knew everything and tell me what he actually think of me.

But, after that he started to sms with 3 girls and like flirting with them.

I was like "what the hell" and I am getting jealous.

He like angry me and i did not know why.

I hope i can know what he thinking.

And yet, i felt so guilty to him.
I was like the one who caused him to lost money alot. I mean alot.

Or maybe sometime i think too much?

Yea, today i knew something new about you.

It was like the reason which make you not to be in a relationship?

I was like ouch, how can a guy tahan that?

I felt sorry but it makes me getting more ^*($ to you.

I dunno what happening to me.

Can somebody help me PLS?

totally dunno what i thinking......

Recently i get mad easily. I get angry easily. I get boom easily.

Don't ask me the reason. Don't ask me why.

Me myself, don't have the answer for it as well.

Sorry to my babe, he got to take it all from me.

I keep complaining, keep scolding him and he seem like dunno anything.

He keep saying sorry.

Yea, i noe its me the one who is moody and emo-ing.

I should not get mad on you.

But,

who ask you to get a htc and i get jealous because of it.

Ishh...

who ask you to busy with your htc and dump me aside.

Ishh..

I really not meant to angry at you.

Maybe its because of the pressure being study?

I not sure for that.

But glad to know that you tolerate with me.

Glad to know that you actually keepin my pict in your htc.

I know you wont forget me at all.

That's all my fault.

I love you my hubby~

Still a long way to go,

You n me~ got to wait for 3 weeks more.

You have got what you want and what yo wish for

BUT

do I?

Thanks a lot to Jmie and Shu Wei.
Accompany me all along the way i was moody and totally out of my mind yesterday.
Without u both, i really don noe what should i do~

Jmie, you are always my best buddy.
As you say, 1996-2010.
Our friendships last long and it will never end~
Tik Tok when the time reaches 12am, i told u i m hungry but no mood to eat.
And u give me this.

They do really warm my heart~
I always know, whenever i am whatever i have,
you will share with me and will be with me.
I love you always ah MIE~

Shu Wei, thanks alot to you.
Actually i know you having the same problem like me.
But you are a good guy.
U accompnay me all along the time.
You told me urs and i tell u mind.
Sometime, i need your help.
and terbalik.
you need my help sometimes.
Thanks fren.