Mahjong

Mahjong~Mahjong~ Mahjong~ Mahjong~ Mahjong~ Mahjong~ Mahjong~ Mahjong~ 

I never won in Sabah.....

Please make me even 1 time winner i also will feel the hapiness.......

Everyday, not poker then mahjong.

Friends sekalian, we have to control ourselves bah.

No more gambling fro weekdays.

But can play only during weekends.

Haha....

If not, i bankrupt and you all gotta be the millionaire.....

I am always the loser,

I also don't understand why.

And what is the reason so.

Thanks alot all my buddy, darlings and everybody.

I knew and i can felt all the care that u received from you all.

I am better and ok now....

No much worry for me....

I don't like that feeling at all.....

I don't care about it anymore~!!

Dunno why, feel like this time i came back and my homesick get serious.

I din tell anybody about this.

But seriously, i miss my family badly.

I playing poker play mahjong everyday.

Feel like very free very enjoy. 

Yea, before sleep i will think about papa pia, mama mia, mei mei, o kui and ah ma also.

Maybe things happen on me and i could not handle very well.

I was just too upset for what had happen.

I shud not be treated like this.

I should really try to let off.

But everytime i only noe to speak it out. 

No action for me, i should control my own emotion and my feeling.

I always tell myself, i will not miss you, care you anymore.

i dont love you at all.

But, i totally cant let off.

I just dunno why.

That day, u sms me and treated me like your gf.

I ask you, am i ur gf?

You say u dunno and say only i am ur bixiang.

But at the end, only i realise i am not i am not i am not.

You want me to tell u wat to do if you cant get a gf?

Pls, tell me wat to do before i could tell you. 

I really out of my mind.

I suppose not to contact you anymore, 

but hand is no more i can control.

Nothing i can control.

Now, tell me what should i do?

Wait???

How long i have to wait?

Let off???

What i can do so that i can let off you?

I am currently in Sabah now.

Yea, so fast i had started my second year here.

Mentioned before, i am not staying in my hostel anymore.

I moved out and stay with my buddies in a terrace house outside school now.

House is still not really clean yet, and this will be what i gonna clean this coming saturday.

Stay for this few day, don't feel like going to school.

I love bed alot.

I dont want to wake up and go for class.

But i have to....

Good to say that,

i stayed outside and we able to cook our own dinner.

EvErYdAy~!!

Really fun playing around.

1 of my male fren knows to cook.

Delicious he can cook.

And Si fein could cook nice as well.

I am the one who dunno cook.

And only can sit and wait for food.

Yummy....

i am starving gonna have dinner at home again.

Feel like playing masak masak nia

haha......

I understand

Sometimes, when we are in a bad mood, nobody will try to understand or just understand the feeling we are undergoing. Maybe i am not good to express it out so that you will try to feel it, but i think i will sometimes write everything on my face or maybe the way i talk, chat with you. Nobody will have happy feeling everyday, every moment every second. Neither YOU or ME. As an example, something bad happened and you kept complain to me. I trying to comfort you, but you wont understand my feeling. Seriously to say, you are selfish since the day i knew you. You only think over the importance of everything for yourself and not other people, not even your parents. Fooling around with you is not a big deal, but i hope you will take good care of yourself, your life. I will still care and worry for you, you just like a bomb and will burst up poeple's anger anytime. Really hope you will understand this point. 

Love you Buddy~

Jmie, i not really know what exactly happen to you. But i understand as your situation is quite similar to me. Those person will never understand what the reason we angry, or feel not comfortable, or frustrated. Sometime we love each other sometime we argue. But we have to control ourself, 'sabar sabar sabar'. Tell yourself this and everything will be all right.

That's the reason why i also have no temper, and i seem like nothing to worry about. 

I have alot problem, just i dunno how to express it out to family, friends. 

I felt like everything is my problem, and nobody did wrong.

I just wonder why everything will happen on me.

But there always i will put a smile on my face.

Smile everything, Your worry will go away.

PC world

That's what kid always do when they are around my house.

Both are my cousins.

Each person a computer.
And

They are playing the same game.

Plants VS Zombies.

My dad's kid also came and played only games.

Wonder what will happen for the future soon.....

Swensen

A simple lunch yet it warmed my heart.

Went for a lunch with my sis and Jmie.

Jmie got the ^buy 1 free 1^ voucher, so we just went in.

Quite nice, not bad.

But

not

for

*thumb up*

Chockie

Last week, aunt came back from KL.

She bought me a pack of present.

For the sharing among me, bro and also sis.

Its a huge huge pack of choc where she bought it when trip to Hong Kong.

Thanks alot, aunt.

A lil secret to you.

* i love choc, but only white and dark choc*